February 14th 2011. Happy Valentine's Day to all people in thiz world :D
I would like to say, happy valentine to my dearest best friends, best girls, best of the best. There are Uwi, Rahma, Dila, Nadia, Sarah, Anggie, Tiara and Vania. And next for my crazykrezih friends Nanda, Giscka, Tikah, Nurul, Usha, Defa, Tata, Mustika &many more. And also for my beloved family, especially my mom. Last, for Khairan.
Today was not really means special to me. Which is I didn't appreciate in val's day. Boredamn attack. I've no idea. My mind was stuck. Icecream drunk. Hmm people got some chocolates on val's day but me? Ate ice cream too much....~ I love foods. I love foods a lot hehehe.
Enough. Why I shud to be like this? The others people are very happy out there, so just share ur story guys. Everyday is a good day (I wish). Thank you. Goodnight ☺
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Monday, February 14, 2011
12 Februari 2011, 1st Anniversary ♥
12 Februari 2011 our first anniversary. Me&Khairan.
11:57 p.m I got a call. From someone. Yes he is, Khairan. I've got a feeling, that he would call me to say "happy anniversary". I was wrong.
K (khairan): kamu dimana? Keluar dong
N (nabila): dikamar, keluar kamar? Ngga deh dikamar aja
K: ngga keluar rumah
N: ngapain?
K: keluar aja
(I walked to the carport)
N: udah diluar nih
K: oke
*tuut..tut..tut* call ended. And then I texted "kamu ngerjain aku" to him. And he replied "keluar pager pliss". It was really surprised me. Guess what? 00:00. I thought that he would say "happy anniv" so I said it first. But, I was wrong again. (Kurang lebih gini percakapannya)
"Udah jam 12 belum?" "Udah" "hm aku mau ngomong sesuatu" "oke, happy anniv ya (ngulurin tangan)" "ngga, aku gamau" "oh gitu oke (balik badan)" "hehe bercanda" "aku mau nembak kamu lagi" "(diem)" "I love you. Do you want to be my girl? (Ngeluarin sebuket bunga dari balik badannya)" "(ceming, cengengesan,kepo)"
"itung deh" and I counted. 12 purple roses&between these roses there is one white rose. What does it mean? I didn't know. Until he asked "tau artinya ga?" and I answered "nggak, emgnya apa?" He told me "12 tangkai mawar ungu tanggal jadian kita, 1 tangkai itu artinya sebulanan" and next...how did me look like? Speechless. Surprised. Can't believe. I just wanna cry. What a sweet things I've got. I've never seen purple rose before, and in that day someone who I loved gave it to me. You shud be jealous guys hehe :p
About 1hour we talked each other. At the end, kiss&hug. I'd love it soooo much. Feel like "oh God, thank you so much for him, what a thigt hug"
Fyi, I've a surprise too loh :p when he arrived at my home to picked me up, I walked and gave him 6 cupcakes and said "happy first anniversary". First cupcake "happy", second cupcake "1st", third cupcake "anniversary", fourth cupcake "khairan", fifth cupcake "a fixie" and the last cupcake "nabila". I put our photos in the second,fourth&last cupcakes. I know, my surprised was nothing. Krik krik. And ya kinda like that. But I hope you like that. The only thing I wished is could be with you for long time. I'm just too afraid of losing you. I love you. I do really love you ♥.
Next, Khairan and I went to Gandaria City. We were going to watch No String Attached. Yeah Ashton Kutcher 's new film. Wrong film. Too much "xxx" scenes. And it was awkward hehe. Thank you dear for accompany me ♥.
11p.m me and him arrived back at my home. Late. I knew mom&dad would be angry with this. And...something I won't happened is happening. BAD. WORST. And so sorry. I couldn't make the happy ending. Well, you've told me that I've to forget it. Yeah I did. But guilty is can't lie. I can't lie to my self that this guilty is really killin' my heart. Nyesek. Banget. And I hope, gw bener. Kalo itu juga nyesek banget buat dia. Once again, sorry.
Setiap ada tawa pasti ada tangis. Makannya hidup itu nggak selalu bahagia dan kita nggak selalu ada di atas. Mungkin gw terlalu bahagia sampai pada akhirnya gw harus menangis.
Ps: I love you.
11:57 p.m I got a call. From someone. Yes he is, Khairan. I've got a feeling, that he would call me to say "happy anniversary". I was wrong.
K (khairan): kamu dimana? Keluar dong
N (nabila): dikamar, keluar kamar? Ngga deh dikamar aja
K: ngga keluar rumah
N: ngapain?
K: keluar aja
(I walked to the carport)
N: udah diluar nih
K: oke
*tuut..tut..tut* call ended. And then I texted "kamu ngerjain aku" to him. And he replied "keluar pager pliss". It was really surprised me. Guess what? 00:00. I thought that he would say "happy anniv" so I said it first. But, I was wrong again. (Kurang lebih gini percakapannya)
"Udah jam 12 belum?" "Udah" "hm aku mau ngomong sesuatu" "oke, happy anniv ya (ngulurin tangan)" "ngga, aku gamau" "oh gitu oke (balik badan)" "hehe bercanda" "aku mau nembak kamu lagi" "(diem)" "I love you. Do you want to be my girl? (Ngeluarin sebuket bunga dari balik badannya)" "(ceming, cengengesan,kepo)"
"itung deh" and I counted. 12 purple roses&between these roses there is one white rose. What does it mean? I didn't know. Until he asked "tau artinya ga?" and I answered "nggak, emgnya apa?" He told me "12 tangkai mawar ungu tanggal jadian kita, 1 tangkai itu artinya sebulanan" and next...how did me look like? Speechless. Surprised. Can't believe. I just wanna cry. What a sweet things I've got. I've never seen purple rose before, and in that day someone who I loved gave it to me. You shud be jealous guys hehe :p
About 1hour we talked each other. At the end, kiss&hug. I'd love it soooo much. Feel like "oh God, thank you so much for him, what a thigt hug"
Fyi, I've a surprise too loh :p when he arrived at my home to picked me up, I walked and gave him 6 cupcakes and said "happy first anniversary". First cupcake "happy", second cupcake "1st", third cupcake "anniversary", fourth cupcake "khairan", fifth cupcake "a fixie" and the last cupcake "nabila". I put our photos in the second,fourth&last cupcakes. I know, my surprised was nothing. Krik krik. And ya kinda like that. But I hope you like that. The only thing I wished is could be with you for long time. I'm just too afraid of losing you. I love you. I do really love you ♥.
Next, Khairan and I went to Gandaria City. We were going to watch No String Attached. Yeah Ashton Kutcher 's new film. Wrong film. Too much "xxx" scenes. And it was awkward hehe. Thank you dear for accompany me ♥.
11p.m me and him arrived back at my home. Late. I knew mom&dad would be angry with this. And...something I won't happened is happening. BAD. WORST. And so sorry. I couldn't make the happy ending. Well, you've told me that I've to forget it. Yeah I did. But guilty is can't lie. I can't lie to my self that this guilty is really killin' my heart. Nyesek. Banget. And I hope, gw bener. Kalo itu juga nyesek banget buat dia. Once again, sorry.
Setiap ada tawa pasti ada tangis. Makannya hidup itu nggak selalu bahagia dan kita nggak selalu ada di atas. Mungkin gw terlalu bahagia sampai pada akhirnya gw harus menangis.
Ps: I love you.
Monday, February 7, 2011
kangen
Kangen
Kangen itu .... gw sendiri gatau apa definisi dari "kangen". Tapi kenapa gw bahkan kita bisa ngerasa kangen sama seseorang bahkan baru 2 jam atau bahkan baru aja dia hilang dari pandangan kita? Gw emang bukan seorang yang jago bikin filosofi bahkan gw
adalah orang yang sok jago dalam hal kayak gini.
Bagi gw ......
Kangen itu undescribable, nggak bisa di deskripsiin. Kangen itu dimana kita ngerasa ingin berada di sampingnya dan mengulang kegiatan apa yang biasa dilakukan bersama. Kangen itu universal, nggak cuma kangen sama orang yang kita sayang aja, kangen sama sahabat, bahkan sama hal kecil yang pernah dilakuin diwaktu yang udah lewat juga kita bisa kangen. Sebenernya kalo boleh gw cerita dikit, kenapa gw nulis ini? Jawabannya mungkin nggak perlu di jabarin karna sudah pasti karna gw sedang merasakannya, merasa kangen. Perasaan yang nggak bisa dipungkiri, dan mungkin gw adalah orang yang mudah sekali merasa kangen kepada seseorang. Tapi, kangen itu nggak salah. Kayak yang udah gw bilang, kangen itu universal bisa kepada apa, siapa, kapan, dimana aja. Saat ini gw merasa so deeply miss my boyfie (agak lebay karna baru 4jam berlalu) actually kenapa gw kangen bukan karna belum ketemu atau apa. Ini bakal gw bahas nanti. Next, gw kangen banget sama temen2 smp gw, terutama kelas 9-5, yang TER-UTAMA adalah Gianti Mahardika. Kangen gw gak cuma sama seseorang tapi gw lebih kangen sama keadaan di smp dulu, keadaan, atmosfer yang sampai sekarang belum sepenuhnya gw dapetin di SMA. Mungkin kalo sama seseorang itu bisa sedikit disembuhin (kayak sakit aja ¬_¬) tapi kalo sama keadaan yang udah lewat? Impossible. Dan ini sakit.
Ketika gw merasa kangen sama orang-orang terdekat gw yang pastinya gw masih bisa ketemu, satu hal yang terpikir di gw, hingga suatu saat gw merasa kangen sama seseorang namun gw gabisa ketemu sama dia mungkin di titik itulah yang namanya kangen bisa bikin sakit. Gw nggak pernah mau dan gak akan pernah mau untuk mengalami kayak gitu (meskipun gw pernah mengalaminya berkali-kali --sampe sekarang). Disaat semua kenangan harus dilupakan dan ditinggalkan, disaat orang yang di-kangenin sudah ngga bersama kita, dan disaat itu kita merasa kangen dan di saat itu gw bakal ngerasa down. Gw gak pernah mau ngebayangin ini. Nggak. Nggak akan. Nggak mau. Disini sedikit gw sindir kalo gw ngga mau kehilangan orang yang bener-bener bakal gw kangenin banget.
Eh tapi, keluarga. Keluarga kandung yang tinggal serumah. Pernah ngga sih lo ngerasa kangen sama nyokap lo yang tiap pagi, malem ketemu gitu? Pernah. (Ini untuk yang masih ada (maaf)). Gw lebih mikir kalo gw merasa kangen terhadap hal apa yang gw biasa lakuin dan kejadian apa yang ada, bukan sama objeknya tapi sama keadaannya. (Well, gw nulis ini dan hp gw men-shuffle lagu "I'm afraid of losing you" completed).
Good Night!
Kangen itu .... gw sendiri gatau apa definisi dari "kangen". Tapi kenapa gw bahkan kita bisa ngerasa kangen sama seseorang bahkan baru 2 jam atau bahkan baru aja dia hilang dari pandangan kita? Gw emang bukan seorang yang jago bikin filosofi bahkan gw
adalah orang yang sok jago dalam hal kayak gini.
Bagi gw ......
Kangen itu undescribable, nggak bisa di deskripsiin. Kangen itu dimana kita ngerasa ingin berada di sampingnya dan mengulang kegiatan apa yang biasa dilakukan bersama. Kangen itu universal, nggak cuma kangen sama orang yang kita sayang aja, kangen sama sahabat, bahkan sama hal kecil yang pernah dilakuin diwaktu yang udah lewat juga kita bisa kangen. Sebenernya kalo boleh gw cerita dikit, kenapa gw nulis ini? Jawabannya mungkin nggak perlu di jabarin karna sudah pasti karna gw sedang merasakannya, merasa kangen. Perasaan yang nggak bisa dipungkiri, dan mungkin gw adalah orang yang mudah sekali merasa kangen kepada seseorang. Tapi, kangen itu nggak salah. Kayak yang udah gw bilang, kangen itu universal bisa kepada apa, siapa, kapan, dimana aja. Saat ini gw merasa so deeply miss my boyfie (agak lebay karna baru 4jam berlalu) actually kenapa gw kangen bukan karna belum ketemu atau apa. Ini bakal gw bahas nanti. Next, gw kangen banget sama temen2 smp gw, terutama kelas 9-5, yang TER-UTAMA adalah Gianti Mahardika. Kangen gw gak cuma sama seseorang tapi gw lebih kangen sama keadaan di smp dulu, keadaan, atmosfer yang sampai sekarang belum sepenuhnya gw dapetin di SMA. Mungkin kalo sama seseorang itu bisa sedikit disembuhin (kayak sakit aja ¬_¬) tapi kalo sama keadaan yang udah lewat? Impossible. Dan ini sakit.
Ketika gw merasa kangen sama orang-orang terdekat gw yang pastinya gw masih bisa ketemu, satu hal yang terpikir di gw, hingga suatu saat gw merasa kangen sama seseorang namun gw gabisa ketemu sama dia mungkin di titik itulah yang namanya kangen bisa bikin sakit. Gw nggak pernah mau dan gak akan pernah mau untuk mengalami kayak gitu (meskipun gw pernah mengalaminya berkali-kali --sampe sekarang). Disaat semua kenangan harus dilupakan dan ditinggalkan, disaat orang yang di-kangenin sudah ngga bersama kita, dan disaat itu kita merasa kangen dan di saat itu gw bakal ngerasa down. Gw gak pernah mau ngebayangin ini. Nggak. Nggak akan. Nggak mau. Disini sedikit gw sindir kalo gw ngga mau kehilangan orang yang bener-bener bakal gw kangenin banget.
Eh tapi, keluarga. Keluarga kandung yang tinggal serumah. Pernah ngga sih lo ngerasa kangen sama nyokap lo yang tiap pagi, malem ketemu gitu? Pernah. (Ini untuk yang masih ada (maaf)). Gw lebih mikir kalo gw merasa kangen terhadap hal apa yang gw biasa lakuin dan kejadian apa yang ada, bukan sama objeknya tapi sama keadaannya. (Well, gw nulis ini dan hp gw men-shuffle lagu "I'm afraid of losing you" completed).
Good Night!
Sunday, February 6, 2011
what will happen in April?
I can’t wait for April. Too much best thing will happening on April 2011. First, this is what I will watch in April 5th 2011 : Bruno Mars Live in concert at Istora Senayan, Jakarta. Just the way you are, grenade, move on, count on me, nothing on you, billionaire, again, and many more!
Second, I’m going 16th guys!!! About 2 months I’m not 15th girl anymore. Well, my friends are going 17th this year but its okay, age is nothing. And the happiest news is “Ujian Nasional tahun 2011 bakal dilaksanakan tanggal 18-21 April 2011” it means gw sebagai anak kelas 11 bakal libur, and April 21st is my 16th b’day. I luv holiday, especially on my b’day hihi :p.
Third, April 23rd 2011 is Justin Bieber concert, too bad I can’t attending. Why? Kejauhaaannn!! Dan kemahalan dan gak dibolehin sama papa . Honestly gw pengen banget nonton justin bieber hmm next time lah insyaallah Amin.
Fourth, April 27th 2011 is Maroon 5 Concert. I’ll be there!! I’ll standing in front of Adam Levine. Band jaman sd banget yang namanya dulu dance sampe pake lagu “This Love” (masa kelam) haha :p. I can’t lie that all maroon 5 ‘s albums are totally amazing and the songs absolutely easy listening with the beautiful lyrics. Hardly, badly, madly can’t wait.
Last, insyaallah in 22nd-25th I’ll going to Singapore with my beloved family. Semoga ini ga bakal diundur-undur lagi kayak rencana awal yang tadinya bakal pergi akhir februari ini.
And, there are the reasons why I can’t hardly wait for my April. I luv April. So, What’s your favorite month guys?
Second, I’m going 16th guys!!! About 2 months I’m not 15th girl anymore. Well, my friends are going 17th this year but its okay, age is nothing. And the happiest news is “Ujian Nasional tahun 2011 bakal dilaksanakan tanggal 18-21 April 2011” it means gw sebagai anak kelas 11 bakal libur, and April 21st is my 16th b’day. I luv holiday, especially on my b’day hihi :p.
Third, April 23rd 2011 is Justin Bieber concert, too bad I can’t attending. Why? Kejauhaaannn!! Dan kemahalan dan gak dibolehin sama papa . Honestly gw pengen banget nonton justin bieber hmm next time lah insyaallah Amin.
Fourth, April 27th 2011 is Maroon 5 Concert. I’ll be there!! I’ll standing in front of Adam Levine. Band jaman sd banget yang namanya dulu dance sampe pake lagu “This Love” (masa kelam) haha :p. I can’t lie that all maroon 5 ‘s albums are totally amazing and the songs absolutely easy listening with the beautiful lyrics. Hardly, badly, madly can’t wait.
Last, insyaallah in 22nd-25th I’ll going to Singapore with my beloved family. Semoga ini ga bakal diundur-undur lagi kayak rencana awal yang tadinya bakal pergi akhir februari ini.
And, there are the reasons why I can’t hardly wait for my April. I luv April. So, What’s your favorite month guys?
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
February 1st
hello fellas, welcome February =D new month, new passion, hopefully everything will be better in this month. Februari terkenal sama Valentine's Day. Actually, I'm a moslem. Kata orang sih kalo orang muslim gaboleh ngerayain valentine, buat gw? kenapa harus ada hari valentine kalo arti dari valentine's day itu hari kasih sayang? setiap hari juga hari kasih sayang kok, i think ya. Valentine's Day tahun ini ga pingin berharap apa-apa dan lebih kok, cuma pingin bisa bareng sama Khairan aja hehe. anyway! 2days before Val's Day itu satu bulanan gw sama Khairan hehe. Bismillahirrahmanirrahim semoga beneran bisa sampe sebulan ini dan lebih Amin, jangan sampe kayak yag sebelumnya :D well, yang lalu udahlah ya hehe. sayang banget kenapa harus aja Ujian Blok 1 di bulan februari, jadi harus tetep belajar deh-__-. oke enough for today. thankieessss bloggie :*
