I am weak. I am not strong enough to go through life on my own sometimes. At times I cry hysterically, tasting the salt as my tears roll down my face into the corners of my dry cracked lips. I don’t want to say goodbye. I don’t want to leave. I don’t want things to change. I want this one might be last forever. I don’t want to even think. I am pathetic in that way beyond belief. I cannot stand for this at the moment, and I need to just, breathe.
I hate a liar. Liar has the sweetest lips to say any kind of lies. There was a difference between what you said and what you did. There is a 'lie' in be(lie)ve.
I think you should know something. You cant read my mind and dont ever try to read it cause you wont understand. When i said "im fine" im not always meant it. I said it cause i dont want you to know what i really felt. I dont want you to get hurt. Because i love you.
Well, you will ask me to share everything to you. Or telling you if i get upset. Its hard. And i think, a real man should know when his girl get upset, and think why's the reasons. (peka sedikit donggg)
Enough for today. Too much tears, too much things in my mind. Sorry.
Ps: I will never stop loving you. I mean that to the ends of the Earth. I am a mess right now. I don’t know how to fix myself right now.
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got the ticket!
YEAH!!! i got the ticket. can't wait for may, 14th. A Rocket To The Moon, Hey Monday and The Downtown Fiction \m/
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
If You're Not The One - Daniel Bedingfield
If you're not the one, then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one, then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine, then why does your heart return my call?
If you you are not mine, would I have the strength to stand at all?
I never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with
I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?
If I don't need you, then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you, then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me, then why does this distance name my life?
If you're not for me, then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray that you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?
'Cause I miss your body and soul so strong
That it takes my breath away
And I breath you into my heart
And I pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And though my heart is by your side
I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?
If you're not the one, then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine, then why does your heart return my call?
If you you are not mine, would I have the strength to stand at all?
I never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with
I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?
If I don't need you, then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you, then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me, then why does this distance name my life?
If you're not for me, then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray that you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?
'Cause I miss your body and soul so strong
That it takes my breath away
And I breath you into my heart
And I pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And though my heart is by your side
I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Our Trip & A Bunch Of Unyu Experiences
Hai bloggy...
Okedeh dimulai dari hari Minggu, 27 Februari 2011...
Minggu, 27 Februari 2011
Gw dan khairan ngebolang ke puncak, naik apaaaaa??? Motor! Hahaha pasti lo juga bakal berpikiran kalo pantat lo udah kayak ke amplas klo naik motor dari Jakarta-Puncak. Ya emg begitu keadaannya.. Ga perlu gw jelasin kan se-pegel apa? Pegel banget! Haha. Okedeh balik lagi ke cerita yang sesuai sama judulnya. It was my first time loh ke Puncak naik motor dan sama pacar, itu gila. Gila banget. Seriusssss!! Perjalanan kurang lebih 3jam gitu lewat pamulang-parung-bogor-puncak. Mana di perjalanan hujan trus sampe akhirnya begitu deres bgt kita memutuskan untuk meneduh. Nggak begitu lama sih neduhnya trus lanjut lagi. Nothing special sih di perjalanannya karna ya gitu gitu aja namanya juga jalanan ya ada mobil, motor, jalan, tiang dll lah. Langsung aja ya ke pas udah sampe puncak. Jadi kita stop di...puncak pass di Rumah Makan Rindu Alam. Jadi kayak ada tempat buat parkirnya gitu, nggak begitu lama sih disitu karna rame dan tempatnya ga begitu seru juga cuma ngeliat pemandangan kebawah. Trus kayaknya cacing2 diperut udah minta makan jadi kita turun lagi buat nyari makan kan, dan guess whattt?? Khairan belum pernah makan sate kelinci yauda deh tuh kita memutuskan untuk makan sate kelinci, di salah satu tempat makan di pinggir2 gitu deh, dengan ngasalnya berhenti gitu kan pesen2 dsbnya...tiba2 hujan deres bgt, kebayang gak sih kalo ujan di puncak gimana udaranya?!?! Dinginnya udah sampe ke tulang-tulang. *ceritanya makan gitu* haha freak bgt gw..yaudah deh tuh kan nunggu ujan reda lamaaa bgt akhirnya kita memutuskan untuk mesen jagung bakar. Setelah blablabla kita bayar dan memutuskan untuk cao menerjang hujan nekat supaya gak ke sorean balik ke jakartanya, tebak apa doooong??? Baru kali ini gw makan sate 10tusuk harganya 30rb...nyesek bgt-_- mending makan di cimory resto deh, still can't believe HAHA. Yaudah forget about it lah, ikhlasin aja emg udah rezeki abangnya. Kita nekat tuh hujan2an dipikir ga dingin2 banget kali yaaaa....taunya behhh Khairan udh double 2 baju 2 jaket dan gw juga udh double 2 tapi tetep aja kedinginan, sampe giginya gemeteran haha lucu bgt-,- hingga alhirnya meempuh perjalanan yang sangat panjaaaaang sampe ngantuk dan ketiduran gitu gw sampe juga dirumah jam 6 sore dari berangkat jam setengah 10 pagi. It was great adventure!! Hehe totally bolang deh seharian itu.
Senin, 28 Februari 2011
As usual, pulang sekolah gw dijemput sama Khairan. Hari senin itu rencana mau ketemuan sama rahma di mccafe kemang. Karena motor scoopynya Khairan udah kayak habis off-road jadi pake vespa deh. Awalnya pas berangkat sih aman aman aja ga ada masalah apa2 tapi pas pulangnya...Mogok total sampe akhirnya dorong deh dari mccafe sampe belokan gitu yang mau ke arah little baghdad. Tiba2 ada seorang pengendara vespa yang baiiiiikkk banget (sumpah gw gabisa ngungkapin gimana baiknya itu orang, dewa banget deh hehe) ditolongin gitu kan dibantuin betulin ternyata emg harus ke bengkel gitu, didorong lah dari belakang, gw duduk di vespanya si malaikat itu wakaka mungkin kalo gw naik motornya khairan tuh orang modar juga kali ya pingsan keberatan. Disini gw bener2 jadi pihak yang serba salah...pulang duluan salah bangettt (pacar macam apa coba?!?) tapi ikutan juga gabisa bantu apa2 cuma ngerepotin aja tapi begitu udh di bengkel gw jadi banyak tau kalo ternyata seasik itu jadi pengendara vespa hehe. Ini seru banget. Kenapa gw bilang seru? Ya selama ini gw ga pernah yang namanya ngerasain susah2an kayak gini sama pacar, pernah sih tapi ini bener2 seru banget dan gw dapet banyak pengalaman yang bener2 gabakal bisa dilupain :) hingga akhirnya 1 jam kurang lebih selesai vespanya diservice cao balik deh sampe rumah sekitar jam 6 gitu. Seru banget hehe.
Thank you so much my dearest boy, Khairan Afif Mahadika. We had so much fun&awesome experiences. And we will always have these :D loveyousomuchhoneykissandhug
Okedeh dimulai dari hari Minggu, 27 Februari 2011...
Minggu, 27 Februari 2011
Gw dan khairan ngebolang ke puncak, naik apaaaaa??? Motor! Hahaha pasti lo juga bakal berpikiran kalo pantat lo udah kayak ke amplas klo naik motor dari Jakarta-Puncak. Ya emg begitu keadaannya.. Ga perlu gw jelasin kan se-pegel apa? Pegel banget! Haha. Okedeh balik lagi ke cerita yang sesuai sama judulnya. It was my first time loh ke Puncak naik motor dan sama pacar, itu gila. Gila banget. Seriusssss!! Perjalanan kurang lebih 3jam gitu lewat pamulang-parung-bogor-puncak. Mana di perjalanan hujan trus sampe akhirnya begitu deres bgt kita memutuskan untuk meneduh. Nggak begitu lama sih neduhnya trus lanjut lagi. Nothing special sih di perjalanannya karna ya gitu gitu aja namanya juga jalanan ya ada mobil, motor, jalan, tiang dll lah. Langsung aja ya ke pas udah sampe puncak. Jadi kita stop di...puncak pass di Rumah Makan Rindu Alam. Jadi kayak ada tempat buat parkirnya gitu, nggak begitu lama sih disitu karna rame dan tempatnya ga begitu seru juga cuma ngeliat pemandangan kebawah. Trus kayaknya cacing2 diperut udah minta makan jadi kita turun lagi buat nyari makan kan, dan guess whattt?? Khairan belum pernah makan sate kelinci yauda deh tuh kita memutuskan untuk makan sate kelinci, di salah satu tempat makan di pinggir2 gitu deh, dengan ngasalnya berhenti gitu kan pesen2 dsbnya...tiba2 hujan deres bgt, kebayang gak sih kalo ujan di puncak gimana udaranya?!?! Dinginnya udah sampe ke tulang-tulang. *ceritanya makan gitu* haha freak bgt gw..yaudah deh tuh kan nunggu ujan reda lamaaa bgt akhirnya kita memutuskan untuk mesen jagung bakar. Setelah blablabla kita bayar dan memutuskan untuk cao menerjang hujan nekat supaya gak ke sorean balik ke jakartanya, tebak apa doooong??? Baru kali ini gw makan sate 10tusuk harganya 30rb...nyesek bgt-_- mending makan di cimory resto deh, still can't believe HAHA. Yaudah forget about it lah, ikhlasin aja emg udah rezeki abangnya. Kita nekat tuh hujan2an dipikir ga dingin2 banget kali yaaaa....taunya behhh Khairan udh double 2 baju 2 jaket dan gw juga udh double 2 tapi tetep aja kedinginan, sampe giginya gemeteran haha lucu bgt-,- hingga alhirnya meempuh perjalanan yang sangat panjaaaaang sampe ngantuk dan ketiduran gitu gw sampe juga dirumah jam 6 sore dari berangkat jam setengah 10 pagi. It was great adventure!! Hehe totally bolang deh seharian itu.
Senin, 28 Februari 2011
As usual, pulang sekolah gw dijemput sama Khairan. Hari senin itu rencana mau ketemuan sama rahma di mccafe kemang. Karena motor scoopynya Khairan udah kayak habis off-road jadi pake vespa deh. Awalnya pas berangkat sih aman aman aja ga ada masalah apa2 tapi pas pulangnya...Mogok total sampe akhirnya dorong deh dari mccafe sampe belokan gitu yang mau ke arah little baghdad. Tiba2 ada seorang pengendara vespa yang baiiiiikkk banget (sumpah gw gabisa ngungkapin gimana baiknya itu orang, dewa banget deh hehe) ditolongin gitu kan dibantuin betulin ternyata emg harus ke bengkel gitu, didorong lah dari belakang, gw duduk di vespanya si malaikat itu wakaka mungkin kalo gw naik motornya khairan tuh orang modar juga kali ya pingsan keberatan. Disini gw bener2 jadi pihak yang serba salah...pulang duluan salah bangettt (pacar macam apa coba?!?) tapi ikutan juga gabisa bantu apa2 cuma ngerepotin aja tapi begitu udh di bengkel gw jadi banyak tau kalo ternyata seasik itu jadi pengendara vespa hehe. Ini seru banget. Kenapa gw bilang seru? Ya selama ini gw ga pernah yang namanya ngerasain susah2an kayak gini sama pacar, pernah sih tapi ini bener2 seru banget dan gw dapet banyak pengalaman yang bener2 gabakal bisa dilupain :) hingga akhirnya 1 jam kurang lebih selesai vespanya diservice cao balik deh sampe rumah sekitar jam 6 gitu. Seru banget hehe.
Thank you so much my dearest boy, Khairan Afif Mahadika. We had so much fun&awesome experiences. And we will always have these :D loveyousomuchhoneykissandhug
