i'm writing this...

hai! honestly, i dont know what to say and what to write. so many things i've done without write on this blog. me and khairan will going to be 9th months anniv, and on september 28th was khairan bday, i gave him a surprise with his friends and 2gifts; jersey and scrap photos. it's just a simple things but i wish that he likes it. so proud to be his until now and i wish we can have long lasting relationship. i love him with no reason. i just love him anyway. i love him just the way he is.

Dia

Hey blog :-D

I'd like to tell you about 'him' the person I love.
- Dia yang selalu baik
- Dia yang selalu ngalah
- Dia yang selalu perhatian
- Dia yang selalu mengerti
- Dia yang selalu sabar walaupun terkadang mudah terbawa emosi
- Dia yang selalu bisa bikin gw ketawa
- Dia yang selalu bisa ngehibur gw
- Dia yang selalu menjaga perasaan gw
- Dia yang selalu berusaha memberi kabar
- Dia yang selalu ngabis-ngabisin makanan dirumah
- Dia yang terkadang cuek dengan hal lain
- Dia yang alergi seafood tapi omnivora
- Dia yang sering ngidam takoyaki
- Dia yang manja sama mamanya
- Dia yang loyal kepada teman-temannya
- Dia yang selalu rajin sholat
- Dia yang selalu ngebalikin kata-kata gw
- Dia yang selalu ngecheck timeline gw
- Dia yang cemburuan
- Dia yang galak kalo udah jeles
- Dia yang selalu mantau gw kayak cctv
- Dia yang selalu tahu apa yang gw suka/tidak
- Dia yang suka iseng
- Dia yang selalu ngebuka mata gw lebih luas
- Dia yang suka petualangan
- Dia yang gasuka pake aksesoris
- Dia yang sederhana
- Dia yang suka sekali dengan fixed gear
- Dia yang suka sekali dengan vespa
- Dia yang punya khayalan tinggi
- Dia yang selalu gw sayang
- Dia yang selalu gw kangenin
- Dia yang punya arti penting dalam hidup gw
- Dia adalah sahabat gw
- Dia adalah teman gw
- Dia adalah pacar gw
- Dia adalah Khairan Afif Mahadika

Masih banyak tentang 'Dia' yang belum bisa ditulis di post kali ini karna terlalu banyak hal-hal yang nggak akan pernah bisa di lupain. Right now, I miss him so much. I wish I could see him everytime I miss him....

Awful

Bad feelings ever.

I ain't like that things. Im not supposed to be mad, hate or anything. I dunno what to do, what i supposed to say, and i dunno how to give any responses..... No need to cry about it. I know i can face it wisely. I wish i could do/say something but i just did nothing.

Seharusnya dari awal jangan pernah bahas hal itu, harusnya dari awal gausah ikut campur urusan orang, seharusnya.....gak kayak gini jadinya. And now, i've to forget any other things i dont like about him. Maybe it will save our relationship ;) semoga aja gw gak mengenal kata capek :')

God...please make everything easier :'D

:"D

I am weak. I am not strong enough to go through life on my own sometimes. At times I cry hysterically, tasting the salt as my tears roll down my face into the corners of my dry cracked lips. I don’t want to say goodbye. I don’t want to leave. I don’t want things to change. I want this one might be last forever. I don’t want to even think. I am pathetic in that way beyond belief. I cannot stand for this at the moment, and I need to just, breathe.

I hate a liar. Liar has the sweetest lips to say any kind of lies. There was a difference between what you said and what you did. There is a 'lie' in be(lie)ve.

I think you should know something. You cant read my mind and dont ever try to read it cause you wont understand. When i said "im fine" im not always meant it. I said it cause i dont want you to know what i really felt. I dont want you to get hurt. Because i love you.

Well, you will ask me to share everything to you. Or telling you if i get upset. Its hard. And i think, a real man should know when his girl get upset, and think why's the reasons. (peka sedikit donggg)
  
Enough for today. Too much tears, too much things in my mind. Sorry.

Ps: I will never stop loving you. I mean that to the ends of the Earth. I am a mess right now. I don’t know how to fix myself right now.

got the ticket!

YEAH!!! i got the ticket. can't wait for may, 14th. A Rocket To The Moon, Hey Monday and The Downtown Fiction \m/